在你最後謊言的牙齒前微笑

[顏雪花Catherine Yen]

Cigarette

在你最後謊言的牙齒前微笑

我開始同情她了

在夕陽下的月暈裡

像霧又像紗

從來不知道

自己需要一個名字

符號糾纏腳步

由記憶到遺忘

蜉蝣人生

線條結構生命

一條線切割圖的畫面

一行字改變詩的形式

在神秘中饑渴

隨時違背的愛情

她用蛙式泅泳

在泥沼中

在岩縫裡

自慰一生

磨蹭哀樂與生死

捧著跳動的心

看自己的矛盾

絲線綑綁自己綑綁人間

像風箏飛向高懸的天

找不到源頭

雲與蒼鷹相遇

留下什麼

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寂靜畫室

畫作四散

影像跳脫畫面的墓園

十字架復活

破衫與蠟罐

你的祭台

腳步聲迴響

風鈴的清冷

像暗藏的攝影機

收納不安的靈魂

畫板、防油紙紛紛躍起

喀嗒、喀嗒咬噬長廊的暗影

一個人失去他的心靈

在一個失落的地方

那正是我要尋找的

你說：「跟我來」

卻走在我後面

我磨亮我的舌頭

在浮石般的月光下

讓靈魂在藍莓酒裡飛揚

走出畫室

看到自己的名字

掛在月亮的皺紋裡

在你最後謊言的牙齒前微笑

Smiling to a final lie in front of your teeth

I began to sympathize with her

In the moon halo beneath the sunset

Like mist, like veil

Unknown as I

Who need a name

The symbol entangled the footsteps

From memory to forgetfulness

Like a life of ephemera

Lines structured the life

It can cut the screen into pieces of a painting

Line of words would change the form of a verse

Hunger and thirst in a mystery

A love can be betrayed at any time

She swims like a frog

In quagmire

In crack of the rocks

Masturbating thru the life

Dawdled in joy and sorrow

Life and death

Grasping the beating heart

Perceiving one’s own contradiction

The silk thread bundles oneself and people

Like a flying kite in height

Can't find its source

When cloud and goshawk encountered

Whatever remains?

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Silent the studio

Scattered the paintings

Escaping the image of cemetery thru the screen

Resurrection of the cross

Rags and wax pots

An altar for you

Echoed the footsteps

The desolation of the wind bell

Like a hidden camera

Collecting the disturbed soul

Leaping the drawing board and greaseproof paper

Biting the shadow of the corridor in click sound

A man

Who lost his mind

In some lost place I wish to find

Follow me, you said

But you walk behind

I polished my tongue

Against the pumice moon

Floated my soul in blueberry wine

Walk out the studio

I saw my name

Dangling in the wrinkles of the moon

Smiling to a final lie

In front of your teeth