獨白 Self Confession

[顏雪花Catherine Yen]

(The Artist, by Daumier, 1870)

獨白

乾澀的雙眼
抹去所有事物的起伏
簡化情感
沒有淚水也沒有歡笑
春意盎然的庸俗
無法傳遞季節的生長與消亡
當信念腐蝕
只能在執著中找到褻瀆

人類以直立的姿勢
負載重量
承擔做為動物時未有的虛弱
像一棵孤獨的樹
依附其上的罪惡與疲倦
繼續傳給後人
在人間
無權期待奇蹟

鏡子前
看著自己
當手指滑過雙肋
如同彈撥曼陀鈴
看到人類其實離墳墓不遠
我們因穿著得到永生
當肌膚覆蓋骨骸
衣衫蓋住肌膚
一種本能的騙局

摘下帽子
蜷曲腹腸之中的
尊嚴、派頭與得意
那只是人類的戲法
一種挽回頹勢的逃避
拋開面具
孤獨者
在荒漠與鬧市裡
享有自己徹底的赤裸
可以與死者並肩同行

獨白

焦澀的目睭
擦去所有事物的起落
簡化情感
無目屎嘛無歡笑
春意青翠的俗氣
無法度傳達季節的生長佮消亡
當信念腐蝕
干單e當佇綿爛中找到褻瀆

人類用直立的姿勢
負載重量
承擔做一個動物時所無的虛弱
像一叢孤獨的樹
依附頂懸的罪惡佮疲勞
繼續傳予後代的人
佇人間
無權利去期待奇蹟

鏡前
看著家己
當手Ch'ng頭仔趨過兩爿胸坎
親像咧彈曼陀鈴
看到人類其實離墓仔埔無遠
雜因為穿插得到永生
當肌膚勘著骨骸
衫仔勘著肌膚
一種本能的騙局

Kah帽仔脫落來
彎蜷腹腸內面的
尊嚴、派頭佮得意
he即是人類的戲法
一種挽回頹勢的逃避
拋開面具
孤獨者
在拋荒的沙漠佮市區裡
享有家己徹底的赤裸
會使佮死者並肩做伙行


Self Confession

Dry eyes
Erase all the undulation of things
Simplify the emotion
There is no laughter nor tears
Spring the vulgar
Can not deliver the growth and demise of the season
When faith the corrosion
Can only find the blasphemy in persistency

Man held the upright position
Loaded weight
Bearing the weakness that animals did not take
Like a lonely tree
Dependent on it the evil and fatigue
Continue to pass on the future generations
In mortal
No right to expect a miracle

In front of the mirror
Look at my own
When the fingers glide through the double ribs
Like to pluck a mandolin
Seeing human is not far from the grave
We got eternality because of wear
When the skins covers the bones
Clothes cover the skins
An instinctive scam

Took off the hat
Twist in the abdominal intestine
Dignity, style and pride
Are only human tricks
An escape to restore the flagging
Cast aside the mask
The lone
In the desert and downtown
Completely enjoy their own nudeness
Can walk shoulder to shoulder with the dead